just a bit dense

It's 8:21 am and I'm sitting in school, ignoring work. Instead of work I'm going to write an awesome blog post about Twilight.

Let me start with the fact that I'm obsessed with the story, everything about it draws me further inside the mythical "Twilight-world". Even if that sounds a bit bitter, I don't want to get out. I personally have read the books 10(?) times, each. And every single time I read the books laugh, cry, shake at the exact same places. I always feel like I can see the wet, green forests of Forks. I've always seen books as a way to escape the real world. And Twilight, and the world of Edward and Bella is perfect. It's strangely similar to my own world but it's still so very different. Magical.

People ask why I love the books so much. I don't have an answer to that. I really don't know what is the "thing" that fascinates me about them but I think it has something to do with the fact that everyone has someone in he books that they can relate to, I find my whole family in the books. There are so many details that I can relate to. For an example, My brother would be in Charlie's situation exactly the same. He'd probably interrogate the poor guy for 14 hours with out a loo-break.

Another thing I like about the books that they were inspired by a lot of artists that I listen to, Muse for one. One of my favorites. In fact I'm listening to them right now. Muse - Plug in Baby And then the soundtracks to the film. First one was so awesome I don't have words for it. I discovered bands like Blue Foundation, The Black Ghosts and then ofc. Robert Pattinson's musical talent. (I'm rob-whore and proud of it! I mean, he's like the hottest man on the planet!?)

Lastly, I*M SUPER EXITED FOR NEW MOON AND I'LL PROBABLY HYPERVENTILATE THROUGH THE WHOLE FILM! OMEOMEOMEOMEOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111111oneoneoneoneoneoneoneoneoneoneoneoneoneone *squeeaaaal*
Any thoughts, please share

: maija

People can be so disappointing. Even the people I've never even met. It's scary really I see everyday stuff that makes me go "what the fuck? what is happening to us, why do we keep on doing these things?" Either that or just a plain "No.. seriously, no..". Ever get the feeling of just thinking, "fuck this. I don't want to. This is not the way I want things to be."? Ignore that particular thought, you can't do shit about it anyway. You want to change the world, do great things, make a difference, matter. Well think again, things don't work that way. Ever. At least not in my case.

Right now I'm sitting in school trying to not die of boredom, you have no idea how little motivation I have for school at the moment. Yes, I chose this school, I applied to it and all that stuff but, waking up at 6 am and dragging myself to school to sit and do assignments that are absolutely impossible to get exactly right. Perfect. And I'm loosing my head just trying. ARGH! I seriously would mind if my teacher would just drop dead on the floor.

Yeah, don't you just love days like these? (can you spot the sarcasm?) The perfect song for days like this one is: Limp Bizkit - Break Stuff.

My playlist for today:
Foo Fighters - Long road to ruin, All my life, Learn to Fly, Wheels
Linkin Park - In the End, One Step Closer, A Place For My Head
Limp Bizkit - Break Stuff, Click, Click, Boom
P.O.D - The Payback, Alive
The Pixies - Nimrod's son, Allison
The Killers - When you were young, Somebody told me
The Libertines - Up the Bracket, 7 Deadly Sins
The Strokes - Reptilia, Someday
The Arctic Monkeys - Mardy Bum, Brianstorm, Who the fuck are the arctic monkeys?
The Cooper Temple Clause - Homo Sapiens
The Fratellis - Flathead

So yeah, all songs that are worth listening to. Enjoy!

: maija

hm, hello blog! Still confused. Still the same idiot as ever.

I love foo fighters right now, their lyrics explain everything. seriously. They do. It's amazing, I listen to them and suddenly everything makes sense in a weird way. It's extremely comforting. They have such a great variety of things they sing about, but right now the lyrics of the songs "big me" and "free me" there are some places in those songs that are so spot on it's ridiculous. And the killers are also a band that are really getting to me, the song "When you were young" has a part where they say "He doesn't look a thing like Jesus but he talks like a gentleman just like you imagined when you were young".. Ridiculous.

I've had a week long holiday and I have spent it away from home, I seriously haven't had time for anything. Kinda nice but at the same time exhausting, maybe that's why I'm all messed up? hm, good thought.

Um, a pretty dramatic week actually, loads happened, loads (sadly) didn't happen although I wanted them to. (don't you just hate that?)

And lastly I want to apologize to everyone about everything (soo if you read this, I'm Sorry!).

My absolute favorite thing to photograph, my sisters baby. She's amazing, she somehow surprises me in everything. Maijan kulta.

I'm gonna go sleep. Tara! (thanks Davidd)

: maija

hm, what to write about? I've got a week long holiday soo I'm currently sitting in my friends school with Maria. We've been terrorizing my old school too. I've got loads of inside jokes on my mind but I think it would be kinda stupid to put them here.. Soo, wuää..

I got a few new way of cursing people. wanna hear? Yes, you do. (even if you say no you subconsciously want to hear them!) The best one today was: "stop being such an STD!" and then, this one isn't really a curse but anyway. Imagine this: you're trying to listen to a friend, trying to look interested, but you can't. So when your friend is finished talking you go "whatever you say sweet-tits". Props to that one to my e-mail buddy! It's soo perfect it hurts. There's loads of diffrent ways to say cock-sucker but my personal favorite is "cock gobbler" = Perfect. And last but not least the perfect way to describe my hair in the morning "My hair looks like it's been fucked by a room full of monkeys". Don't you just go, autch, that was a good one!? Awesomeness? Yes, over here!

Want to knonw something I absolutley Hate, you know, Hate with a capital "H"? People who blog about their relationship problems. Fucking hell sort them out in private.. Please! That's all folks, gotta go!

: maija

Hello blog, this is going to be confusing. I'm going to try to say it all without saying anything. And I just hope that the people involved get it. m'kay?

I want to, but I don't want to. I need to, but then again I don't need to. I'm wishing, hoping and dreaming. My dreams often getting way out of line. And then when reality comes and I crash down, hard. As I usually do. Again and again. Apparently I'm a perfect match, and I, holy fuck how I want to believe that, but then again I'm too scared, too caught up in my own experiences that I simply can't. I'm afraid I'm your fool. And stupidly enough I'm still sitting here hoping, dreaming of those words, the confirmation. fuck my life..

And here I sit having constant arguments in my head. The devil and the angel, the Devil saying "Maija, you are ridiculous. Stop this nonsense, you can't ask for the things you already know you can't have", and then the Angel saying "Oh, everything is sooo pretty, you're so pretty. Keep building Maija, this is so cute!". And then the real Maija, the one going completely nuts screaming "Shut the fuck up, just be quiet for once in you existence I don't want to hear it! I'm sick of you two". So, yeah. Does anybody understand what I'm talking about? Am I Making any sense at all?

And for you, making my head spin (and also making by breath get caught in my throat while thinking). I hope you've got it even more confusing. And I hope you're happy, because if you were trying to get me all mystified. Congratulations, you succeeded.

I think the picture says pretty much everything.

: maija

we went to this FinnGraf convention in Jyväskylä. Didn't really learn shit but we had fun (fun is an understatement) with my classmates. Media-assistants doing what we do best. Messing around.

TEAM HOT, the group of people who own a blue cap with a little solar-panel thingy that is connected to a fan which starts blowing when you get light on the panel thingy, totally awesome.

Here is a close up on the cap. It's awesome, right?!

Yeah, so we had loads of fun, the 4 hour buss ride wasn't bad either, had loads of fun. Alot of "Yo momma" jokes. :''D

Also listening to some great stuff, The Kinks are back on my playlist but also a few new band, Bloc Party, The Cooper Temple Clause, and a bit of arctic monkeys too. Anyone who listens to these, comment your favorite song or whatever. That would be great.

: maija

Sorry blog, I've been ignoring you. You know I love you anyway.

Heard this cool psychologic thought yesterday. It goes like this: Everything in the world only exists to make it a better place after we die. (at least that's how I got it) Everything we do affects the people who live on after us. We are not unique we are one whole and we're all here to make it work after we die. Interesting thought, would be a thing I think I could live with if it were true. Only this that messes this one up is that everyone in the world are at least 30% selfish. Soo, people today don't really only care about how life is going to be here after us. We're here to make ourselves work not the other way around. I admit, I think about my own problems, who doesn't? But it would be kinda healthy for the people on this planet to live by this rule. (At least for a week).. What are your thought on the matter? Please comment!

I have also a new addiction, omegle.com. It's like the best way to waste time on the internet. But I have had some interesting conversations with some of the guy's I've talked to. About Music, and languages, ad about how cultures differ in certain aspects of society. Fun fun fun

What else? Hm, the kickboxing started and I'm loving it! It's sooo much fun, met a few girls that we trained with, but the "scary mr muscle" was freaking me out. (scary mr muscle is not a positive name, he's .. strange..) But it's fun, enjoying it a lot. If you could see me you'd se me bobbing my head in time with The Strokes - Hard to Explain and laughing at my classmate. He's hilarious :''D

Choir starts on tuesday! which is awesomeness in it's most basic form. I hope we have good music on. YAY MY LIFE. Seriously, everything is as it should be right now.

I'm going to try to not to forget this blog so much, I hope there's people reading it otherwise this is a complete waste of time. hm. sad thought.

: maija

One thing that has always fascinated me is how some people can say that "I don't have a favorite band" or "I don't listen to music".. Nuts.

Being a person who is absolutely addicted to music, I speak, eat, breathe music. I listen to all sorts of stuff. My musical "education" is very broad. As a kid I never listened to "baby music" ever. I only listened to the stuff my dad listened to like, Jimi Hendrix, The Beatles, Cream, Eric Clapton and other hippie bands and artists. Then when I grew I started listening to my brothers music, fell in love with bands like Linkin Park, The Offspring. Which I still listen to. Then the party music I got from my sister. The best dancing music is Reggeaton, slower rap artists like Sean Paul, and black music with a good beat is my favorite type of music on the dance floor. and then as a teenager/young adult I started listening to a lot of Heavy, glam-rock and such, still listen to it but not like I used to, favorites were: Mötley Crüe, W.A.S.P and Motörhead.

Nowadays I'm a Indie/Psychedelic rock/Old-school hippie music/Alternative rock/Folk rock/Jazz/Punk/Soul/Blues/Electric rock. That's pretty much it.. music junkie extraordinaire!

Another thing that I realized a few days ago was: OME, If my plans about my future work out the summer next year might be my last one at home in Finland, because after I graduate I've made a vow to myself and my mother that I'm going to go on a "Europe-tour". Backpacking through Europe! Exiting yes. I'm not sure if I'm going alone or not but I swear to Hendrix, Clapton and Santana that if anyone tries to stop me I will rip them a new one. Tehee..

But that's all.

: maija

1. What’s your name?
maija, I was called maggot as a baby and my sister still calls me mimmuli.

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
My dad's leather jacket which I found in my closet a few days ago.

3. Last thing you ate?
Potatoes?

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
I don't know.. I eat pretty much everything except the thing I've hated since I was like three years old: Porridge.

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
woah!

6. Last person you hugged?
Mum? Samson? Sanna? I can't remember

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
I'm in a long term relationship with music.

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
Not a complete stranger but, sure..

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
My "fangs" (Yes, I'm a dork)

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
School cafeteria.. yum. I had potatoes and some sort of a fish-thingy

11. Who is your best friend?
Sanna, Joel, Samson, Hanna. Fo Sho!

12. What time of the day is it?
8:14 pm

13. Who/What made you angry today?
Feeling sick and not being able to eat properly..

14. Baseball or Football?
football ofc!?

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
Of course. I'm from Replot

16. Favorite type of Food?
My mum's lasagna is the food of gods.

17. Favorite holiday:
Christmas.

18. Do you download music:
I don't I make my friends do it for me because I just can't.. even if I'd want to.

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
no. If I don't care nobody else needs to either.
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20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
main-stream and boring.

21. Would you date the person that posted this?
Nope. Sorry..

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
Yes.

23. Do you love anyone?
My family and closest friends.

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
If the color is nice then, yes.

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
No. Nor do I want to.

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
Nope, but it looks like fun!

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
Not that I know of?

27. How many pets do you have?
I've had two dogs when I was younger but now there's just me and the occasional dust-balls.

29. Have you met a real redneck?
A Finnish one, yes.

30. How is the weather right now?
Windy, but the suns out.

31. What are you listening to right now?
The Dooors - love two times, awesome song!

32. What is your current favorite song?
The Arctic Monkeys - Mardy Bum

33. What was the last movie you watched?
American Pie 2

34. Do you wear contacts?
No.

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
School..

36. What are you afraid of?
Spiders, Needles and mentally unstable people like pyromaniacs, schizophrenics etc..

37. How many piercings have you had?
I've pierced my ears but I never wear any earrings ever.

38. What piercings do you want?
I could get a nipple piercing.. Don't know why..

39. What’s one thing you’ve learned this year?
That spontaneously is the best way to go. In everything.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
I don't live in a place with Starbucks but plain coffee with milk is my usual.

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
Yes. an air rifle. And I got a rifle as a gift when I was little been thinking of getting a license for hunting.

43. Are you missing someone?
Nope. Not really..

44. Favourite TV show?
Life, Skins, The Office.. I don't watch that much TV..
freaks and geeks.

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
No.

47. Has anyone said you look like a celebrity?
Nope.

47. What celeb do you look like?
? none, I think?

48. Who would you like to see right now?
My good friend "feelgood"

49. Favorite movie of all time?
Star Wars (The old ones ofc) and Twilight.

50. Do you find yourself loved?
Yes. Sometimes.

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t suppose to?
Yes.. Many times..

52. Favorite smell?
There is this old vintage bookstore that smells amazing. And guy deodorant.

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
Butter.

54. What’s something that really bugs you?
That I feel sick all the time, and it's pissing me off because I'M NEVER ILL OR ANYTHING!

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?
Yes, King Of Pop!

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?
Burger King! du'h!

57. What’s your favorite perfume?
DKNY - Be Delicious

58. Favorite baseball team?
The one in high-school musical. As I said I'm a football kind of girl.

59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
Nope. (Don't know what it is)

60. What’s the longest time you’ve gone without sleep?
3-something hours.. I get cranky in lack of sleep.

61. Last time you went bowling?
Last year?

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
I could probably sleep anywhere but the thing most far away from my own bed would have to be me and Sanna's boat with nothing but a tarpaulin as roof. + it rained that night..

63. Who was your last phone call?
Hanna, It's her birthday today! YAY HANNA!

64. Last time you were at work?
When we had this practical training thing from school I worked at a newspaper in Åland.

64. What is the closest orange object near you?
Pen.

: maija

Hello. I'm feeling like shit. I'm ill. I normally don't whine about anything but seriously when you've felt like shit for 3 days you start getting pissed, sad and whine-y. I hate being ill, there are a couple of things that completely terrify me. 1. Spiders, wasps 2. Hospital stuff like needles, doctors and illnesses. And I hate not knowing what is wrong with my body, and when I'm ill the hamster-wheel in my head starts spinning I freak out because I have driven my mind to a state where there is no turning back I will never be cured of said illness. (I probably only have some mild stomach problem but that doesn't stop the little hamster bugger)

Moving on, I read this totally awesome blog the other day. nimrodofobi.blogspot.com. It's in Swedish but it's fucking awesome! He speaks of his life so freely. His woman, sex with said woman, stuff he does and how he does it. So yeah, I pretty much ignored my lesson today and sat an laughed quietly in my seat. + He's hilarious.

So, what else? Do you know what pisses me off beyond belief? Whiny people, seriously. Me, Sanna and Samson watched this Swedish teen movie called "Fucking Åmål". Fucking fuck. This film is about two girls who are at the sensitive age of 14. And they just what to kill them selves, their mum and dad are no good, they hate their life etc. Well, shit. I have never been in the same situation as these girls but for fucks sake. Would you like some cheese with that whine? Jesus titty-fucking Christ! I mean, If you really feel like your life is shit and you want ot die, well go ahead, make my day take the leap. Kill your self.

Have been listening to awesome music, right now: the arctic monkeys - mardy bum.

: maija